I am honored to be here and thank you for listening.
Which is harder, to leave or to be left behind? No one can answer that easily. I believe that both feel a sense of loss. This melody tells a story about that.
It is true when people say that everyone must go at some time - that's the circle of life. It's easy to say and difficult to accept, as anyone who has lost will understand. I used to tell myself, "Please leave it as it is. I won't leave the pain behind because that would be admitting an ending. Why do I have to change anything?" I might have tried to keep things inside, keep things the same, blame myself, and feel unconsciously guilty in order not to put my hurt on others.
This melody has been my release. As soon as I finished playing this song "Leave You," tears streamed down my face uncontrollably. I will never feel that moment again, never relive it. I felt something pass through me. At that moment I realized that I was able to forgive myself and release my guilt. Strangely, I felt no regret or pain. I finally accepted that I had to leave you quietly, in peace.
Memories last forever, we are sometimes afraid of change. I think it is not intellectual understanding but a somatic sensation that leads us to leave. We need to wait and listen to our inner voice carefully until the time comes. We will surely make a decision to leave on our own.
I strongly believe that this melody expresses something certain, just like salvation or forgiveness. I am happy to share it with you. I hope it will be collected by someone who loves it, as well as the emotion and perspective surrounding the melody. If you are interested in my story, I will tell you more about it later on Discord. Thank you.