HATE TO ADMIT is inspired by this idea that art takes courage sometimes. Particularly when you write about things that crack your ego. In Nov-Dec 2021 I had enrolled in a writers workshop just to keep the pen sharp. So I was in the 'writing zone'. I thought it would be interesting to write something where every rhyme felt like an admission, and made me question whether I should say it on record. So much of hip hop is written for self-affirmation that the opposite feels strange. This song is the result of that writing exercise. The melodic hook is also unusual for me. I've never 'sung' on record. Funny story: I took a 5 day surfing trip to the south of Sri Lanka. Every morning after surf lessons I'd wade out into the ocean where I could project my voice and practice the hook of this song, knowing that I'd be returning to the city to lay it down in the studio later.